Saturday, December 1, 2012

The Thanksgiving to Remember!

As some of you may know, these past few weeks have been a little on the crazy side for me. Here's why:

The week of Thanksgiving I woke Monday morning, around 2 am, with the most horrible abdominal pain I have ever experienced. This had happened to me a few weeks before, and had gone away after about 3 hours. I didn't do anything the first time, thinking I had just a tummy ache from hell. Now that is was happening again, I felt like it was maybe something more. Just as before I began vomiting after about an hour of pain. Around 4:30 am, sill in intense pain, I woke my roommate and asked him to take me to the hospital. Hoping against hope that there really was something wrong with me and they wouldn't just send me home saying "You ate to much pizza." Turns out, my wish came true, and after some heavy doses of pain meds and and an ultrasound, my little gallbladder was to blame. I left the hospital around 11 am with my mom and grandmother, who took me home and an appointment with a surgeon was made. It took me 3 days to recover from that second gallbladder incident, which put he healthy again right in time for Thanksgiving. Alas, my grandparents and parents were all coming down with the stomach flu, so Thanksgiving was canceled and I was sent home in order to stay healthy for my surgery.
On the 27th at 7:30 am I went into surgery. This was my first time, since I have always been a picture of health. As nervous as I was before the experience, while it was happening I stayed calm. Nurses and doctors  were everywhere, asking me about every bit of medical history imaginable. Tubes and sensors everywhere. I simply watched and answered when asked, and waited. I have to admit, it was kinda cool to finally have one of those little light things taped to my finger. Since I was a kid I have always thought that would be a cool thing if you had to be in the hospital, and I finally had one myself. When they wheeled me into the OR and put this mask thing on me saying I would be falling asleep. I felt like they were kidding. They didn't have it on me all the way and I felt like it should be quick, but I'm assuming it worked because the next thing I remember I was being awoken from the best sleep I'd ever had and I was upset about it. Where was I? Why was I being woke up? It took me, well, to me, what felt like ten minutes to get these questions figured out and able to focus on what others were saying. The doctor came and told me that my surgery went well, although my gallbladder was highly inflamed which was unexpected. My parents came and said I had been awake for at least an hour, which didn't seem right to me. I was given water, which was wonderful as my mouth was dry and sticky. I cried this strange cry when I was asked to dress and leave my bed. It hurt, and I  just wanted to sleep.
Then I was back at my house, on the couch, with my water, happy pills, and heating pad. My family and friends came and visited me over the next few days and I was even able to go back to work, though I literally just sat there.  As my pain is starting to fade and I need less happy pills to keep me going, I can think with my clear mind once again. I'm glad I will never have to experience that abdominal pain again, and that this will hopefully be the most random Thanksgiving I will ever experience. This experience has made me so thankful for my family and friends who where there for me, helping me stay clam and putting up with me all drugged up. I may have missed the big meal, but I was still able to have a wonderful Thanksgiving appreciating those around me.

Sunday, October 21, 2012

Gearing up for my first NaNoWriMo!!!!!!!

I haven't sat down and written in several years. I've attempted a few times, but it never stuck. This year, is going to be different. I have a great idea, and I know I need the kick in the butt that is NaNoWriMo. Turns out there are weekly meetings with other writers that will meet every Sat a block from my house!! How spiffy is that? I need to pour myself into something right now, and I've been trying different things and it just ends up with me hurt (aka guys, lol). I remember what an escape it was to write my first novel, and even though I know this second one will be tricky, and I might want to give up in the middle of the month, but I'm not. I need you guys to help me stay on track!!! 

Sunday, September 23, 2012

The deed is done!

So this is my new tattoo! If you remember I had mentioned before wanting to get one like this. 

Since this isn't a well known image I'm going to use this blog time to explain what this image is and what it means to me. 

This awesome bad ass tattoo is derived from character Kara Thrace from Battlestar Galatica. People have their own opinions of getting character tattoos and that's fine, but live and let live right? 

Kara was a awesome woman who stood up for what she believed in even when everyone thought she was crazy and wrong. She was the one who saved the human race. Granted, I'm no fighter pilot,  nor a fictional character, but I still love what she stands for. To me this tattoo reminds me to stand up for myself, be a bad ass and don't take crap from people. I've been pushed around and walked on to many times in my life and I feel a healthy dose of bad ass is needed. 

Also, I feel like BG is one very well written show. They wrapped a lot of different elements into one and kept the story line moving and intense. As a writer myself this is the type of writing I want to write. Many things may be going on in my stories but I want to be a master weaver and tie all my ends together. 

I changed this tattoo a bit from Kara's in that it doesn't have the Capricorn Constellation on it, but instead the symbol for Virgo, which is my sign. 

Think what you want about my tattoo and decision to get it. Just know that when we are all sitting in nursing homes, all the kids are going to pick me to be their adoptive grandma!!! 

Sunday, September 9, 2012

Quietly chugging along

For the past few weeks my life has been pretty dang awesome. I was uncertain about my birthday, and the fact that September can usually be a scary month for me (reminders of sad things happen in September). This year though, totally not the case! I've been doing awesome at getting myself out of my comfort zone, meeting new people, reading books that I want, saving for my tattoo, and working on my weight loss!

I've started to realize all the things stressing me in life are just simply not worth it. Most of them are things I can't control, or if I can, I just need to make minor changes, which is fine. I'm all about getting to the place in my life where I'm totally confident in who I am, what I stand for, and unashamed about it. No more is Miss questioning herself! I'm here, I'm bad ass, and that's just how it is.

This is all really showing in my writing. I'm still working on writing more often, but when I do my characters share this edgy persona that I'm emitting myself. I know when I go back to edit this might change some, and they will become their own persons, but for now I'm okay with it.

Sunday, August 26, 2012

New Novel in the works

This past week sucked. It happens. These past few days haven't been easy, but they have opened my eyes to a lot! Being single again has it's advantages. As long as I'm in a "improve Joy" mode I'm gonna stick with it. I made a goal tracking sheet for myself today to help me make sure I'm blogging (yay!), writing (tell ya about it more in a bit) and working on eating right and walking. The end goal is to meet all the goals for six weeks and then I am going to allow myself to get this awesome bad ass tattoo! 

I've always wanted this tattoo since the first time I saw it on Starbucks arm in Battlestar Galatica. Needless to say my goals are going to make me work hard so I can get it! 

In other awesome news I've started writing again! I wrote 3,000 words or so this weekend and then had an idea to make the story a middle grade fantasy novel instead of an adult paranormal short story. I'm so excited about this transition and creating my characters! My protagonist is going to be so awesome. My six week tattoo goal thing is to write 3,000 words a week. With all the research I'm going to have to do and school starting I figured this should be an easy number to reach. 

So people, expect to hear more from me in the coming weeks with cool news and insights. Part of my goal is to comment on others blogs and I look forward to joining my blogging community again! 

Friday, August 3, 2012

I'm starting to notice some things...

So, I was thinkin' last night about how I haven't blogged in a while, and realized that I only really blog when I'm in school. Today, this was confirmed when I saw that my last post was the end of this past semester!!
I'm not starting school today, still have a few weeks, but I've been preparing and it brings me closer to the computer. I suppose that's why I blog when I'm in school; I'm around the computer more often! (and need distractions from writing papers)

Having this summer break has been nice though! I've been working my ass off but it's been worth it. Got a new-to-me car (yay!) and was able to do it all on my own, which was a great feeling. New bf who is freakin' awesome and amazing (yay again!) and a ton of fun to be around (which any bf should be if they can help it).

I've also been reading a LOT! I've read the first two Sookie Stackhouse novels, The Secret Life of Bees, Under the Dome (awesome!), and now I'm starting on the Inheritance Cycle series which I'm really enjoying. I think I also read Wicked.

I also...should be getting a Kindle fire this week! SO excited!!! So many new things! OH, one more-new major!! I'm a psychology major now. This was a big thing because I had to wrestle with my two passions, literature and helping others. I love my job (I help others) and decided that I want to stay in this field of work, which I've been doing for five years now. Changing my major means my job will help pay for it, and once I graduate I will be able to move on up! My end goal is to be a therapist to families of physically and mentally disabled children.

So, when you comment, cuz I know you will, let me know what new things have happened to you over the summer!!  

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

A Blast from my past!!

This being my last day of the semester (woohoo!) I've already started re-reading the novel I plan to rewrite this summer. After reading just a few chapters I'm amazed at what I see. I didn't realize how far I've come as a writer. By spending a few years in English related classes and writing who knows how many papers for school, I know my writing style now is much different then it was back in 2009.

In some ways it's like looking into a mirror, or an old photo album. I can see the old me seeping out through the words on the page. My young writing self was so ambitious, so ready to be a famous author. I rushed through my novel and the query process with no success. Now, three years later, with my new wise self, I'm ready to take this story and shake off all the unnecessary and turn it into something beautiful. I'm still proud of myself for writing that novel when I did, and the bones of the story are awesome, but I'm also glad that I now have the knowledge I need to really shine and polish this story up so it really can be query worthy.

Monday, April 23, 2012

Are you ready for some rewrites!?

This coming Wednesday is my last day of finals! yay!! Since this week is the start of my summer break I'm starting on rewriting my finished novel. :)

My goals for this summer are:
1. Rewrite my novel and make it totally freakin' awesome.
2. Blog at least twice a week and comment on 3 other blogs.
3. Check twitter 3 times a day and tweet 3 times a day (as the minimum).
4. Work through one of my writing books.

I have four months to get everything going and I'm so excited about it all! Yay for kick off days!

I've already started checking and tweeting on twitter and have gotten 3 new followers today alone!! My reason for trying to have more of a presence on Twitter is because I think its a great way to connect to other writers and people in the publishing world. Since that's what I'm all about this summer it just makes sense to amp up my twitter time.

If you want to follow me click here! 

If you want me to follow you just follow me or tell me your twitter name!

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

So Freakin' Awesome!

This week, although only midway through, is going wonderfully!

First, this week I've met two other aspiring authors (which is always super fun) and have plans to be critique partners with them. This is something that has yet to really happen for me. I've had friends and family read my works but never other writers or someone who could give a non biased view. My plan is once this semester is over (end of April) to began a big rewrite on my novel that I have completed. It's been on my mind a lot lately and I've thought of some cool ideas that will help the story. By having two critique partners it will not only help my writing, but challenge me to continue my writing so I can have the whole novel done by the end of the summer.

My weight loss is going really well too! It seems like I'm making real strides and have already lost 10lbs! I feel like I have the confidence to keep working hard and strong so I can reach my goal.

This is such a cool time to be me. Everything feels like it is finally falling into place, and after two years of rebuilding myself this is a very welcomed feeling!

Here's the blog of one of my new writer friends! Check it out!!

Sunday, March 18, 2012

Falling into place

First off my weight loss is going great! It's only been one week but I feel great and motivated! I've already lost a few pounds! Drinking 8 glasses of water a day is easier than I thought too. :)

I'm also relieved because I got another job! It's just doing what I have been doing, but with a much better company that's been around and knows what they are doing. It's like getting the best of both worlds! I love working with people who are intellectually or developmentally disabled and I will be able to continue to do so without having the stresses from a company that doesn't know how to work with that population very well.

Having this job will help me not only financially, but also be a job where I feel like I'm making a difference and helping.

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Entering a new phase in the Improve Joy Plan

So I've been working on a few aspects of my life these past few months. Stopped biting my nails and began writing again, but now it's time to start on something new. The big one...the thing the majority of people struggle with-weight loss. I need to lose a total of 45 pounds to get myself in a healthy place again, but for now I'm gonna make my goal 20. By breaking up the goal it makes it less scary.
I have a few good ideas to help me and I've set them all into place.
First, I got at job at the YMCA. Not only did I need a job but by working as a swim instructor a few times a week it makes sure I'm going to the gym. If I'm in my suit and already there I'll be more likely to workout. Also, I get a free membership! So now I have a place to workout even when I'm not working. :)
We have these big big cups at home, and I'm using them to drink water out of. I've always struggled with drinking water but by putting the Milo drink mix stuff in (you just squirt it in the drink) it tastes yummy and before I know it I've drank like 2 liters of water that day!
Breakfast is my other thing. Making sure I'm eating it. I'm a huge fan of sleeping so breakfast hasn't always been a priority for me. I used to think that because I didn't wake up at like 8 am everyday I couldn't have breakfast. But then I realized, breakfast is just something you eat as soon as you wake up, no matter what the time.
Eating several small meals throughout the day is my next goal in all of this. I tried it one day but I don't think I ate enough. Figuring out how much to eat in a small meal is kinda hard. I think I'm just going to eat when I'm hungry and stop when I'm full and see how that works. :)
Obviously eating fruits and veggies is big. I'm practically a vegetarian so this isn't hard for me at all.

My goal is to loose 2 pounds a week so that gives me 10 weeks to make this happen!! By posting about it now I have lots of people to keep me accountable and help me along! I'm sure I will post updates throughout my experience!!

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Me and my savy self

So my last post was in December!!! Yikes!! I guess that's a testament to how busy I have been! So many things to update!

1. I've started writing again. I've began writing about my past and the dark stuff that happened. It's been an emotional experience but I think it's one I need. This process has also brought me to a better place with my faith, as in I have some again. This I'm sure will all be talked about in more detail on a later post. :)

2. Datin' a great guy. :)

3. Job change!! I had some personal issues with how my old job did things so a lot of my down time has been devoted to job searching. I've got to join and start with two great companies and will hopefully find one more small part time job (interview Monday!) to help me keep everything paid. I want next spring to be my last semester in school, so taking more flexible jobs will allow me to take more classes. :)

So, in random news...I've discovered ebay! I've used to to buy and sell several random things, and it has been a good experience so far. One thing I've discovered is using it as a rental services if you will. Like, for example, I wanted to watch the show Modern Family (totally funny by the way) but needed to see the first two seasons first. So I bought them on ebay and then sold them back! Now I'm catching up on series six of Doctor Who (best show ever!) Once I finish it I'm selling it back too!

Joy's posting is back in session! You can expect to hear more from me each week world!!!